August 3 - If you want to know what's true for you about something, look to how you're feeling about it. Feelings are sometimes difficult to discover--and often even more difficult to acknowledge. Yet hidden in your deepest feeling is your highest truth.
My best friend forgot my birthday. It hurts. When I told him about it he gave me excuses, did not say I'm sorry, but did say Happy late birthday. I forgot his birthday 25 years ago and he read me the riot act. I sent him 31 belated birthday cards and also apologized. I'm hurt, angry, and trying to let it go. I just wanted him to say I'm sorry, that's all. I don't think I'm asking too much.
August 4 - You'll get as many chances as you want and need. You can come back again and again and again. If you do get to the next step, if you evolve to the next level, it's because you want to, not because you have to.
Hmmmmmmmmmm. Is God telling me to get over my cheap snake act and move on?
August 5 - I will continue sending you the same messages over and over again, throughout the millenia and to whatever corner of the universe you occupy. Endlessly will I send you My messages, until you have received then and held them close, calling them your own.
This greater than my little snit. To me this is God telling me he loves me and has been and always will be with me.
August 6 - It takes great courage to announce oneself as a man of God. You understand, the world will much more readily accept you as virtually anything else.
I am a man of God, and I know I have been guilty of being afraid of how others might think of me if I said so, but let me tell you that will not happen again. I will say it again - I am a man of God.
Meditations from "Conversations with God - Book 1" the above dates, pages 3, 149,5, and 145.
Tonight my gratitude is for:
- God, my Higher Power
- My Sobriety
- Mamie, my schnauzer
- My Sponsor, leaving on a trip tomorrow.
- My Right eye.
- Being sighted
- Being able to pray to let my snit go.
- Recognizing it's EGO.
- Trying not to be so damned sensitive
- All y'all.
Y'all be pretty now ya heah.