Friday, May 1, 2009

Rambling,resentments, Mamie, and reunion.

The purpose of relationship is not to have another who might complete you, but to have another with whom you might your completeness.Meditations from "Conversations with God - Book 1" page 123
"If you have a resentment you want to be free of, if you will pray for the person or the thing you resent, you will be free. If you will ask in prayer for everything you want for yourself to be given to them, you will be free. Ask for their health, their prosperity, their happiness, and you will be free. Even when you don't really want it for them and your prayers are only words and you don't mean it, go ahead and do it any way. Do it every day for two weeks, and you will find you have come to mean it and to want it for them, and you will realize that where you used to feel bitterness and resentment and hatred, you now feel compassionate, understanding, and love." Freedom from Bondage" page 552, Book of "Alcoholics Anonymous"
So, today I pray for Micky, David, Anonymous or what ever name du jour he is using to have good health, happiness, prosperity, serenity, and spirituality.
I wrote a very hateful piece on Wednesday night and posted it, after thinking about overnight I blotted it out yesterday and decided to take another avenue of action.Now I know the program of Alcoholics Anonymous is the first 164 pages of the Big Book, but there are certainly some excellent suggestions in the stories. I have actually practiced this prayer in other times in life when I have had a huge resentment and I am here to tell you it has always worked for me. That has been my experience and that is all I can share.
MAMIE! One year and one day ago, on April 30, 2008 I adopted my little schnauzer Mamie. A lot of you will remember that as well as my having to put down me beloved Dolly on April 28. An April 28 of this year I cried which surprised me as I do not cry very easily, I can get choked up occasionally, but to actually cry is very unusual. I know it is because of my meds but I would rather not cry than to be where I am without the meds. I digress. Mamie's personality if a 180 from Dolly's. And I cherish each and every day with her. She is so robust and energetic. She is a natural hunter. A new obsession of hers are those damned HUGE tree roaches that come inside occasionally. Last night she had one about two inches long trapped under the credenza and just did her best to get to it. Thankfully she does not eat them, she just flips them on their backs and then sits and watches them "Like you dirty little bastard, you move and you're history." She loves to play ball, fetch the purple squirrel, tug o'war, and to be petted. In the afternoon or evening when I am watching TV she just crawls up on me in my recliner and lays there stretched out with head of my shoulder and every now and then gives me a Mamie kiss on my nose. I love it.
God was good to me when he brought us together and I am grateful for that everyday of my life as you all have witnessed in my gratitude list when I do post.
Now to my high school 50th reunion. I picked Sueanna up at IAH on Monday, we drove around and had dinner at the Adobe Cafe at the Marq'e. A very enjoyable day. Wednesday we got together and drove around Houston so she could see all the growth and changes in the last 30 years. Then Friday night I picked her up and we went to the Potato Patch over on FM1960 near Hardy Toll Road. This was an informal dinner with people from my class of 1959 and also from 1958. There was about 50 of us all toll including some wives and husbands. This was sort of enjoyable but not what I had hoped for, but overall I did enjoy it. It started at 5:30 PM and ended about 8 or so. I took Sueanna back to her hotel and went home. I got to the reunion at the Greenspoint Marriot about 4Pm Saturday. Sueanna was already there as that is her hotel. I checked in, got a name tag with a wallet size picture of me so people would recognize me. One thing I did notice, I AM NOT THE ONLY ONE THAT PORKED UP. I would say that 80% of the group were much heavier than in 1959.Got to visit with the same group as on Fri nite, Madeline and her Mr., Frances and her Mr., Dora (my sweetheart ball date) and her Mr., and Melba and Lynette, both widowed. We had a nice group at the table and enjoyed it. Of course I went around the room looking for familiar faces hidden behind the wrinkles, bald head, gray to white hair, and I was surprised how I could pick out some of my old classmates. The B football guys were there - still jerks. I did get to do a quick visit with several people, especially at the picture board. I was pleasantly surprised that there were quite a number of pictures that I was in. Naturally this pleased me. (what ego)
Then we had din din and the speeches began, (snore) and then the memorial snapshots of those that are no longer with us. That was quite touching. More mingling and a couple leaving said goodbye, wished they had gotten over to the table sooner, and they left. That was Evalynn and Gene. Figured well maybe the next 50 years. So the night wrapped up, said goodbyes to my friends at the table, and off I went. Did I enjoy the evening. Yep. Would I do it next time - Jury is still out on that. However, on Monday I got an email from Evalynn that she was so sorry we did not get to really talk, so when she got home she googled me and found my blog. Read a good bit of it, and wanted to let me know she thought that I had overcome so many of life's problems that she was really impressed. A smaller party for us 59ers is in the works for sometime in the next 25 (?) so we can really visit then. This was a very positive thing. So I probably will get together with them at some time or other. Madeline wants to do a small party at her Rosenberg house. So who knows. Oh our class motto - "What we are soon to be - We are now becoming."
Tonight I am Grateful for:
  • God, my Higher Power
  • My Sobriety
  • Mamie, my OCD schnauzer (one year one day)
  • My Sponsor (Has another surgery on May 5)
  • My Right eye
  • Being Sighted
  • Improved sight in left eye
  • Another laser surgery for May 5.
  • My HS 50 reunion
  • Life's in Session
  • Memories and sharing them
  • friends through out my life
  • daily things we all take for granted
  • All y'all

Now y'all be pretty, ya heah.


Pam said...

oh darlin', I enjoyed reading that.

Scott W said...

Gurl, you are making up for lost time!

Glad you enjoyed the reunion. I have never done one and it's doubtful I ever will.

Syd said...

You have a lot of courage to go to that reunion. I'm glad that it turned out so well. I'm glad that you have Mamie too. You are a kind person and I appreciate what you say here.