Sunday, April 18, 2010

Still here, Still Sober, Still recovering from Grief.

I will not leave you.  I cannot leave you, for you are My creation and My product, My daughter, My son, My purpose and My...Self.   Call on me, therefore, wherever and whenever you are separate from the peace that I am.  April 18 - Meditations from "Conversations with God" Book 1.  page 211

Hi, my alkie friends and visitors.  During these past few weeks I have found and been carried by the peace that is God.  I am at peace in writing about how God, my higher power, has been so noticeably present in my life.  I know He is always there, but in rough times, I have no problem of letting go and letting God.  That in itself is one of the many ways that I have found the miracles that are ever present in this wonderful program of Alcoholics Anonymous.  I am so glad I did not leave 5 minutes before the miracle.  When I got here I knew I needed to stay, that I was where I needed to be, and have never wanted to be anywhere else.  It's a good way of life and it just ain't gonna get any better than that.

Tonight I am grateful for:
  • God, my Higher Power
  • My Sobriety
  • Mamie, my schnauzer
  • My sponsor
  • A good Board meeting at Lambda
  • The Board approved two new AA meetings.
  • An influx of newcomers to Lambda.
  • A great visit with Joe, while we cooked.
  • My Faith
  • My Friends
  • The old friends, that I have not seen nor talked to in years, sending me condolences on Rosalie.
  • The book "Up from Grief."
  • All Y'all.
Y'all be pretty now, ya heah.

2 comments:

dAAve said...

I like that about new meetings. Cool.

Syd said...

Zane, I am so glad that you have the support needed during these difficult times without your sister. The feelings come and go and some days I still feel grief and loss over my parents. Hope that you have a good day.