Thursday, July 24, 2008

Thursday Night, July 24, 2008

Suffering has nothing to do with events, but with one's reaction to them. What's happening is merely what's happening. How you feel about it is another matter. July 23, Meditations from Conversations with God, Book 1 page 105
Last night I inadvertently used the meditation for today, so today I am using the meditation from yesterday. It just so happens that the mixup makes perfect sense to me as Yesterday's reading was just what I needed tonight and vice versa. God makes no mistakes so I will go with the fact that what happened is just what was meant for me.
The fuckits are still here but not as intense as yesterday. I also went to a meeting at Lambda at 5:15 today. To me the meeting just did not gel. But I did come away from it in a better frame of mind. I know I just was not tuned in and the sharings were just words coming out of peoples mouths. I don't think I can quote one single phrase from the meeting other than the twelve steps. My mind was just all over the place. However, I was in a room with another group of garden variety drunks staying sober one day at a time just like me. We were all sober and it just don't get much better than that.
Tonight I am grateful for:
God, My Higher Power.
My Sobriety.
Mamie, my doggie.
My sponsor.
My other blogosphere friends.
MC making it to her 24th birthday today.
My fellow trudgers that continually give me inspiration and guidance on the road to happy destiny.
Y'all be pretty now, ya heah.


dAAve said...

You shoulda called me since you were in the 'hood. Oh well.

Trailboss said...

I hope those old "its" go away soon!

dirtydishes said...

I heard there a new drug out called fuckitol, I think I tried it back in the 80's, but i can't be sure. Havent stopped by for a while, so I thought I would drop in and say HI!

dirtydishes said...

Zane, one thing I noticed missing on your gratitude list was Dolly. I just went back through your posts and read the touching post about your girl. I am so sorry she is gone. That was such a touching post, I still have tears streaming down my face. i understand the love for a pet, I love my 'little" girl so much. I hope you and Mamie have many sober years together. God Bless all your hearts!

Todd HellsKitchen said...

Your "other blogosphere friends" are grateful for you too!