Monday, November 17, 2008

One More Day Of Sobriety

November 17 -- This is the greatest barrier to your enlightenment: You think you already know the truth! You think you already understand how it is. So you agree with everything that falls into the paradigm of your understanding, and reject everything which does not. And this you call learning. Meditations from Conversations with God, Book 1, page 195
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Hi there, my alkie friends. Today is Monday and I am doing my best to live in the now after the awful event of this past weekend. I am just so thankful that I am not one of those people that must pickup and start over. I am blessed.
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I am very protective and dedicated to my sobriety. Nothing and I mean nothing gets in its way. I had a very good friend back in Los Angeles and I had to give him up in my second year of sobriety. He started indulging in drugs (again) and I did not feel safe in his home or his company. I told him this and told him to call me when he came to his senses. He never did. I got a call from an attorney handling his estate that he had died of an overdose a couple of years ago. I had sent him a Christmas card last year and the atty called me to advise me of his death. SUCH A WASTE. I do not in the least feel at all responsible for contributing to what happened to him. I had to protect number one - ME. I have a commitment to sobriety and have worked to live with, by, and for the messages and the program of Alcoholics Anonymous. It has served me well. It works. If I work it, and I have no plans to stop. I have a conscious contact with my Higher Power, God, on a daily basis. I have an understanding and acceptance of myself which I never had before sobriety. Do I want to endanger that. HELL NO. It just does not get any better than that.
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Tonight I am grateful for:
  • God, my Higher Power
  • My Sobriety
  • Mamie, my schnauzer
  • My Sponsor
  • Kind words and encouragement from you bloggers
  • Long long long term friends
  • Tomorrow is class 2 & 3 of my diabetic education(12 years late)
  • Acceptance

Y'all be pretty now, ya heah.

5 comments:

big Jenn said...

Recently , A very good friend of mine relapsed. She was not working a program and started taking pain meds for initially legitamate reasons. BAD combo. Long story short, I had to walk away. Being sober is the most important thing in my life.Like you, I'm grateful to know this. Thanks, jeNN

dAAve said...

I suppose I'll (we) never know how many old friends have died form their drug/alcohol abuse. They were just another part of the journey.

Findon said...

Spot on Zane. Nothing comes between me and my sobriety. I,ve told my wife that if I ever start drinking again, to get the hell as far away from me as possible. I've no intention starting, but that does not change the message. Sad about your old friend and no, it's not your responsibility.

Scott W said...

Hi, Zane!

PRAYER GIRL said...

I pray for those who have died in their addictions and I thank God for my sobriety.