Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Aftersight with Meditation from CWG< BOOK 1.

I truly want what you truly want--nothing different and nothing more. Don't you see that is my greatest gift to you. September 24, Meditations from Conversations with God, Book 1, page 115.
This morning I sat down at my computer and just happened to glance at my Meditations Book. It was Opened to September 13. That was the day that Ike hit us. THIS IS IT ------
"Inquire within, rather than without, asking: "What part of my Self do I wish to experience now in the face of this calamity? What aspect of being do I choose to call forth?" As usual this is from Meditations from Conversations with God, Book 1, page 32.
It was just a tremendous "WOW FACTOR" to me. I am sure that there have been and will continue to be readings from meditation books that fit the particular moment in my life. This is what I call a God Shot. I know it was written long before IKE, but it is just so NOW. I was amazed at the strength that came through in me during the past few days. Most of you know that I have some mental problems such as Depression, Anxiety/Panic Disorder and a couple of others - but these are the ones I want to talk about today. I unknowingly chose strength as the aspect of being that I chose to call forth. I did have one itty bitty teeny weensy teeny tiny Panic moment when we got to Rosalie's house last Wednesday. As we brought things in she was just a little dervish of everything had a place to go and it had to go there NOW! My Anxiety button just got turned on full force when she had a fit where the red onions were placed. I felt the explosion coming on and I just about unleashed all of the anxieties of the past few days out at her. Screw where the GD onions were placed. We were still unloading etc. and I just said to myself - she needs to lighten up and I swear that my inner God said so do YOU! So self said ok, and just went on doing what the next indicated thing was. After reading the 13th's meditation I realized what had happened.
I thoroughly enjoyed the 12 days with Rosalie and Sam. We were together as a family. No harsh words, no whining, no bitching. We really had some quality time with each other.
Mamie now has a new nickname. Monday night I had baked some biscuits in my propane Grillmaster. They came out so fluffy and crisp and just right. I put out two sticks of butter as I had also boiled some potatoes. After dinner, Rosalie and Sam cleaned up after my cooking and cleared the table. Tuesday I noticed that Mamie seemed to have a sort of greasy coat to her coat. I thought, yep, a good ole groom job was coming up. Later, when Rosalie set the table for dinner she notice two of the place mats were on the floor. When she picked them up, she also found the butter plate on the floor --- empty. Hmmmmmmmmmm. Place mats on floor. Mamie's greasy coat. Voila. Case solved. Mamie had gotten into one of the dining room chairs and got the butter plate and ate a stick and a half of butter. No after affects happened, but Mamie's new nickname is "BUTTERCUP". And she answers to it.
Today I am still a sober member of Alcoholic Anonymous, I have a new experience to have gone through in sobriety. It just does not get much better than that.
Today I am GRATEFUL for:
God, my Higher Power.
My Sobriety.
Mamie, my schnauzer.
My sponsor.
My house, my things, my truck, my sister and nephew, my friends,etc.
My compassion and prayers for those that were less fortunate than we were from the effects of IKE.
The blogosphere.
Y'all be pretty now, ya heah.


Pam said...

I'm glad you are home safe and sound darlin'. We had a Great Dane named Bonnie who would steal butter also!

dAAve said...

I guess you peeled another layer of the red onion.


What a wonderful "God shot".
Isn't it absolutely wonderful to know that God is working whether we realize it or not AND that sometimes He allows us to see and know what he has done?
The power of God is awesome.

Todd HellsKitchen said...

Watch that butter!!