Thursday, September 11, 2008

IKE, GET, Damned it, Get.

Judge not that about which you feel passionate. Simply notice it, then see if it serves you, given who and what you wish to be. Meditations from Conversations with God, Book 1, page 100. 09-11
Hi y'all, how the hell are you. I'm doing pretty damned good here in the outskirts of Houston. I'm sober. I was sober yesterday, and I will be sober tomorrow. Why do I know that? Because God has not brought me this far to let me slide back into the hell I lived before I got SOBER. As, I said yesterday, this is a gift and I am sure enjoying it to the nth degree. Sobriety Rocks.
Rosalie and Sam are coming to my house early in the AM. I am so glad they will not be going east. And I feel blessed that they will be at my house and we will go through this together.
Earlier today, I could not contact them, and I was just sure they had left without me. I had that old "abandoned, left behind feeling" one more time. You see when I was growing up and into my thirties, my family was NEVER there for me when the going really got tough. Well, Mother was there, but that's a whole other story. Anyway, about 1 PM, Rosalie called and said they were going to be coming over here. I felt kind of ashamed because of my earlier thoughts. I need to let those go. They are not my truths today. But the old "sting" is still there, I just have to say "SELF, that is no longer true, get over your cheap snake act."
I was busy all day, getting ready for IKE. I filled three 50 gallon garbage cans with water for flushing, if needed. I have some empty gallon jugs that I filled with filtered water. We have a small utility district out here so I do not know about their ability to continue to pump in this kind of a situation. My neighbor was the one that told me to do this. I moved my grill into the garage by the garage door so there will be ventilation for the carbon monoxide. I still have a lot to move outside such as glass table & 4 chairs, a two seat glider, two big chairs, a glass slab top table and other small patio crap. Too damned much to deal with. I think it's all going in my October garage sale. Notice I am planning for October - I am trying to be very positive about all of this IKE crap - but it will be what it will be. I have no power over it or anything else. I do have the power to stay sober and that was my gift from my Higher Power, God.
A quick Mamie story. I was in my recliner about 10 PM and I heard this crash, crash, crash, like something plastic had fallen and was bouncing. I got up out of the chair and turned towards the kitchen and here came Mamie, with her EMPTY water bowl in her mouth and her feet trying to get by. it was just one of those ROTFLMAO moments. I filled it for her.
Wishing all of us Gulf Coasters in IKE's path, a safe, sound, weekend and a quick rebound to normal.
Tonight I am grateful for:
God, my Higher Power.
My Sobriety.
Mamie, my schnauzer - who has not left my side all day.
My Sponsor.
Rosalie and Sam to be here tomorrow.
The positive attitude I have in the face of this thing named IKE.
Y'all be pretty now, ya heah.


J-Online said...

Stay Safe! Sending your hugs and prayers. Jenn


God bless and prayers are being sent your way right now and will continue.

I'm not making light of your situation, but rather indicating how I admire you. Can I borrow you to help with storm preparations the next time my Florida home is in hurricane's way? - Sounds like you are doing a fabulous job of doing all you can before turning it over to God.

AlkySeltzer said...

As Jenn, I say LIKEWISE, and really, really, thinking of all of you this afternoon, tonight, and tomorrow MORNING.

God, please help all our folks in Texas to enjoy a reduced level of stress, and to again relearn the lessons of patience and tolerance.

Beginning to know ZJ, and I'd guess you might even have a good time during this storm, if that's at ALL possible.

Todd HellsKitchen said...

Checking in here on Saturday afternoon... Hope all's ok....

Todd HellsKitchen said...

Checking in on Sunday... Hope all's well..

Trailboss said...

Since we haven't heard from you I am assuming you are still w/o power.

Stay safe Zanny!

J-Online said...

Thinking of you. Please let us know how you are when you can.

Scott W said...

Hi, Zane.

Todd HellsKitchen said...

Hm. Where's Zane?? OK, I hope...