When you achieve certain states of being over a long period of time, success in what you are doing in the world is very difficult to avoid. April 22 Meditations from Conversations with God Book 1 p176
Hey alkies. How many of us woke up sober this morning. I did. How many of us have a sponsor. I do. How many of us have a sponsor who has a sponsor. I do. How many of us went to a meeting of Alcoholics Anonymous today. I did Not. Oh, now I have an excuse. A reason. I was not avoiding a meeting but I still did not make it to a meeting today. I probably will not make it to a meeting until this coming Friday when I double dip. And then there will be Saturday Nite Live with the April Birthday Celebrations. I will make that. I am not afraid of not making a meeting, but when I was drinking, I may not make it to the bar but I sure as hell drank. But the bar was more likely until I turned 40. By that time I had a partner and I did not FIT at the bar as much. Now I have and have had for the past few weeks a meeting directory and there are meeting here in Spring within 5 miles of my house. I just have not gone. They are straight meetings. Now I got sober in straight meetings. No one bit me, no one told me to get out. Some though made me feel that I did not belong, such as stating they believed in Adam and Eve, Not Adam and Steve. So this is a threshold I need to cross, I do want more than three meetings a week. I am just so afraid of rejection or being unwelcome. I have to work on this fear.
Today I am Grateful for:
God, My Higher Power
Dolly, my Schnauzer.
My Clean Kitchen, LR, and DR.
My broken little toe not hurting all day.
Being comfortable with Me.
Y'all be pretty now, ya heah.