God is in the sadness and in laughter. In the bitter and the sweet. April 16 Meditations from Conversation with God. Page 60
Hey y'all. How the hell are ya. Today was a much better day all day than yesterday. I had a doctor appointment that I forgot about and noticed a voicemail on my phone. In checking it was from yesterday and it was a reminder from my neurologist that I had a 2:45 appointment for this afternoon. Damned, it was too late to make the 12:15 meeting - you know the two birds with one trip thingy. But I did make the apt. I am doing fine and my left side is a bit stronger than it was after the strokes, so I'm just marching right out of bad health. My next appointment is April 15, 2009. And I am not going to need him before then I keep telling my bod.
After the doctor I stopped by to see Joe and Karl. Karl is not doing well. Today he had a saline infusion and Joe had to drive he, he was too weak to drive. Joe told me this afternoon about the last two weeks. Now Joe is a tax man and his last 45 days have been busy as hell. It just breaks my heart to see Karl continually fading. I know it won't be long before he goes and I will need to be there for Joe. They are both very stoic about the situation. One thing I am glad of is that both of their families have accepted their relationship and they are included in all family events. This past Jan 1 was their 29th anniversary. They scream and yell at each other, and then the tenderness comes out. It is a joy to see them in action. I would gladly trade places with Karl. But then that is not God's plan.
And it certainly is not for me to determine what should nor what should not be. It all comes down to acceptance. God grant me the serenity to accept this that i do not understand, the courage to be there for my two dear friends, and the wisdom to act accordingly and to stay sober during the process.
Today I am grateful for:
God, my higher power.
Dolly, my schnauzer.
My 40 year friendship with Joe.
My 29 year friendship with Karl.
My blogger friends that show me daily how to continue sobriety.
Believing that I will not drink, no matter what.
Y'all be pretty now, ya heah.