Saturday, October 11, 2008

I fuggered it out!

October 11 - All of you are special. Meditations from Conversations with God, Book 1, page 143
Hey my alkie friends. I done fuggered it out. I talked with a friend of mine and he made a suggestion that did not work, but it got me to thinking. Oh yeah, I made a change in my security area on my control panel. So I went back to Control Panel, changed it back. Voila - Everything is back like it was. It was a learning experience, and anything that makes me learn something about my computer has to worth the trouble it causes me. The other change that appeared as if by magic was a change in my email format. Daave told me this was a change from Yahoo and it was not my fault. That was good to hear, so I did not F*** up everything. YAHOOOOOOOOO!
This evening Daave, Rick, and I had dinner at El Pariso (sp) and then went to the speaker meeting at Lambda. The woman that spoke wore me out with the same droning tone. It was painful. I tried to slit my wrists with a limp dollar bill. I was reminded of Gloria Upson from Auntie Mame. I know I am taking the inventory of a sober woman with 21 years, and I should be ashamed of myself, but I'm not. This is the second time in my 16.5 years of sobriety that I have been through such a painful ESH. During my first year, the speaker for our Sunday morning speaker meeting did not show up, so the chairperson asked for a volunteer. This much loved man with 32 years got up and waked to the podium and shared his ESH with us. No one walked out, but it was a topic for conversation at the meeting after the meeting. Of course we never know what the speaker is going through while he/she is sharing or what kind of day they had. Love and tolerance does not come to mind during these type of shares, but I just cannot walk out on a speaker. I've only done that once and more that one half of the attendees left the meeting. Subject for a future post.
Any way, in spite of my self, I have just completed another 24 hours of sobriety, spent an evening with sober frineds, did a meeting of Alcoholics Anonymous. It just does not get much better than that.
Today I am grateful for:
  • God, My Higher Power
  • My Sobriety
  • Mamie, my schnauzer
  • My Sponsor
  • Friends
  • An afternoon of shopping with Joe
  • Y'all.

Y'all be pretty now, ya heah!


AlkySeltzer said...

Hey, ZJ.

Sounds as if you're having a great weekend. Some people were just not born to be public speakers.

However, as Anthony De Mello wrote (Paraphrased) Just drop all the words from what one is saying, and what you have left is the MESSAGE. I tried it, and it does work--but I forget to use the technique.

J-Online said...

I found myself shaking my head (nodding in agreement) and smiling as I was reading your post. Sometimes it's painful, but you're right, we have no idea what the speaker is going through etc. Looking forward to hearing about your "walking out" experience.

dAAve said...

I must admit that her talk required some extra special attention for me to hear it until the end.
But somehow, I seem to have lived through it. Glad you did too.

Todd HellsKitchen said...

Congrats on all the fuggering!

Scott W said...

Oh, good, it's much easier to read now, too. Patience pays off.

Zanejabbers said...

I know, but patience is not one of my virtues. It is one more of the things on my list I need to work on.