Wednesday, October 15, 2008

I Just Don't Care

OCTOBER 15 - Be watchful of the choices of others, but not judgmental. Know that their choice is perfect for them in this moment now--yet stand ready to assist them should the moment come when they seek a newer choice, a different choice--a higher choice. Meditations from Conversations with God, Book 1, page 47
That's my mood tonight - I just don't care. Kind of a funk. But not so much of funk that I'm really depressed. Just icky. I don't like this feeling, but it sure as hell beats depression. That's when I really don't care. I really like tonight's quote, I have to watch the judgmental thing. I can fall into that so quickly, but the difference in the past and now is that I can recognize that and not act on it. I've said prayers today, my usual morning prayer, and several Thank You, God type prayers. I was making a lane change today and did not see anything in my mirrors, but took the second look to the right and right at my door was the front end of a big pickup truck. That was definitely a thank you, GOD. Another one was when I came out of the movie this afternoon and it was just pouring,
it just stopped and I almost made it to the parking garage before the bottom fell out again. When those kinds of things happen, I really feel totally tuned in to God. But the best is the feeling I have now. When I started to do this post and the hour preceding this, I was in such a funk. Now that I'm doing this post that is lessening. Maybe it's getting out of self? Hmmmmmmmmmmmm. Yep that's the ticket.
Tonight I am grateful for:
  • God, my Higher Power
  • My Sobriety
  • Mamie my schnauzer.
  • My Sponsor
  • God shots.
  • Openness
  • Willingness


Y'all be pretty now, ya heah.


AlkySeltzer said...

Ya know ZJ, that's what these blogs do for me, also. They keep me OUT of funckiness. (Glad I spelled that correctly!). Glad you mentioned that, b/c often I wonder, "Is this all worth the time?" But yes, on several levels it IS, I KNOW it is!

Barefoot Bob IS quite a character. I have photos of he playing guitar, and me playing violin on his catamaran. You'll find on his pages a WEALTH of info on many things. He's very patriotic (rhymes with neurotic?), and also has lots of American Indian stuff. But the URL I sent is mostly Alcoholics Anonymous. I promise, that's PROMISE--you will enjoy every minte spent on his site(s)......Steve E.

Pam said...

Hi Zane..."Won't You Take Me Too - FUNKY TOWN" :)

dAAve said...

Apparently, it works if you work it.

Scott W said...

If I pick up Bunny and put him on my chest, things just seem to get better instantly.

J-Online said...

I deal with depression and understand how difficult and devestating it can be. Blogging helps me get out of my funk too. I hope today is a better day. Hugs

Patty said...

Thanks, Zane. I needed to read that quote.


I'm with you and the other bloggers commenting here - blogging gets me out of my own self - out of my own mind - out of my own funk!

Amazing how it works!


Thanks for the kind comment on my blog today.

Akannie said...

Thanks for dropping by my blog ZJ...and I know just what you mean today. And I went to a meeting and made coffee and opened the doors and wished with all my might that someone would bring me something sweet, when in walks a new friend of mine with a big box of warm homemade chocolate chip/macadamia nut cookies. And she says (I swear) I was just so compelled to make cookies and bring them tonight...." And I immediately felt better.



Zanejabbers said...

Oh, and I love chocolate chip/macadamia nut cookies.