Wednesday, October 15, 2008

I Just Don't Care

OCTOBER 15 - Be watchful of the choices of others, but not judgmental. Know that their choice is perfect for them in this moment now--yet stand ready to assist them should the moment come when they seek a newer choice, a different choice--a higher choice. Meditations from Conversations with God, Book 1, page 47
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That's my mood tonight - I just don't care. Kind of a funk. But not so much of funk that I'm really depressed. Just icky. I don't like this feeling, but it sure as hell beats depression. That's when I really don't care. I really like tonight's quote, I have to watch the judgmental thing. I can fall into that so quickly, but the difference in the past and now is that I can recognize that and not act on it. I've said prayers today, my usual morning prayer, and several Thank You, God type prayers. I was making a lane change today and did not see anything in my mirrors, but took the second look to the right and right at my door was the front end of a big pickup truck. That was definitely a thank you, GOD. Another one was when I came out of the movie this afternoon and it was just pouring,
it just stopped and I almost made it to the parking garage before the bottom fell out again. When those kinds of things happen, I really feel totally tuned in to God. But the best is the feeling I have now. When I started to do this post and the hour preceding this, I was in such a funk. Now that I'm doing this post that is lessening. Maybe it's getting out of self? Hmmmmmmmmmmmm. Yep that's the ticket.
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Tonight I am grateful for:
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  • God, my Higher Power
  • My Sobriety
  • Mamie my schnauzer.
  • My Sponsor
  • God shots.
  • Openness
  • Willingness

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Y'all be pretty now, ya heah.

10 comments:

AlkySeltzer said...

Ya know ZJ, that's what these blogs do for me, also. They keep me OUT of funckiness. (Glad I spelled that correctly!). Glad you mentioned that, b/c often I wonder, "Is this all worth the time?" But yes, on several levels it IS, I KNOW it is!

Barefoot Bob IS quite a character. I have photos of he playing guitar, and me playing violin on his catamaran. You'll find on his pages a WEALTH of info on many things. He's very patriotic (rhymes with neurotic?), and also has lots of American Indian stuff. But the URL I sent is mostly Alcoholics Anonymous. I promise, that's PROMISE--you will enjoy every minte spent on his site(s)......Steve E.

Pam said...

Hi Zane..."Won't You Take Me Too - FUNKY TOWN" :)

dAAve said...

Apparently, it works if you work it.

Scott W said...

If I pick up Bunny and put him on my chest, things just seem to get better instantly.

J-Online said...

I deal with depression and understand how difficult and devestating it can be. Blogging helps me get out of my funk too. I hope today is a better day. Hugs

Patty said...

Thanks, Zane. I needed to read that quote.

PRAYER GIRL said...

I'm with you and the other bloggers commenting here - blogging gets me out of my own self - out of my own mind - out of my own funk!

Amazing how it works!

PRAYER GIRL said...

P.S.
Thanks for the kind comment on my blog today.

Akannie said...

Thanks for dropping by my blog ZJ...and I know just what you mean today. And I went to a meeting and made coffee and opened the doors and wished with all my might that someone would bring me something sweet, when in walks a new friend of mine with a big box of warm homemade chocolate chip/macadamia nut cookies. And she says (I swear) I was just so compelled to make cookies and bring them tonight...." And I immediately felt better.

Godshots.

Thanks.

Zanejabbers said...

Oh, and I love chocolate chip/macadamia nut cookies.