Thursday, October 23, 2008

Waiting and patience are not my virtues.

October 23 - Look to your experience to find your truth. Meditations from Conversations with God, Book 1, page 109
Hi there my alkie friends. Well, I sure as hell did not have to go back very far in my experiences to find my truth. Just yesterday I experienced waiting time at the endocrinologists office and damned near worked my way into a stroke. And of course patience follows. Or rather lack of patience follows. My appointment was at 10:30 and I got there about 10 minutes early. At eleven I was still waiting - ditto for 11:15; 11:30; 11:45 and at 11:55 they called my name. Of course I was steaming. The nurse asked me how I was doing and I said you and I are fine, but this long wait is not acceptable and I know it is not your fault, BUT................ My sugars were very good and my blood pressure was 170/90. NOT SO GOOD! She excused herself and said the Dr. would be right in. At 12:30 he came into the room. We exchanged pleasantries and I told him the same. He apologized and looked over my vitals. He was very pleased with the sugars and my 90 day gluco was 6 which is also very good. Now my eye problem is exacerbated by my high blood pressure. I told him about my eye problem and he said he had a not from the retinologist. He retook my BP and it was 180/100. He just looked at me.Then he said we have to get this under control and you getting mad does not help your BP.One of these days you are going to keel over from a temper fit. (I did in 1998 in an argument over a treadmill at the gym, felt like I got hit in the head with a baseball bat.) Anyway he added to my BP med. This new one is supposed to open up and widen my arteries and vessels. He thinks it will help in getting the blood circulation going again in my left eye. He gave me 70 days of samples plus 90 days of samples for my diabetes. The two together will save me about $150 in my prescription charges. Then he wants me back in one week at 10:30 for a BP check. I will not have to wait more than 10 minutes and then I had a chest xray and an ekg. ????? I left his office at 1:05. Now I really like this doctor and have a lot of faith in him. He has been Joe's Dr. for several years. So I will just have to work on patience and acceptance of the wait.
Now I had wanted to go to the Wednesday nooner at Lambda Center because it is a speaker meeting. However due to the excessive time in the Dr. office, I missed the meeting. So I went to Luby's for the after the meeting meeting. Only three of us but it was pleasant and centered me. Talking with a couple of other alcoholics tends to do that. I did not discuss my Dr. visit. The three of us had lunch and fellowship and they went their way and I went my way. A nice touch to the mid day. I was home at three. I just chilled out for the rest of the day and went to bed at 10:30 and was asleep a little after midnight. (I watched some tv and started dozing).
OOOPs. I did not post yesterday. I knew something else was missing when I went to bed, but just wanted to get to bed. So here I am tonight. I have had a very full day and haven't even looked at today's blogs. So tomorrow I have double reading and enjoyment to look forward to as I read all y'all's blogs.
Tonight I am grateful for:
God, My Higher Power
My Sobriety
Mamie, my schnauzer.
My Sponsor.
Today's nooner at Lambda and a large group at Luby's.
$2.39 per gallon gas at Costco yesterday.
Mamie is to be groomed tomorrow. She is so cute with long hair.
Cool weather is here for a day or two. YIPPEE.
Y'all be pretty now, ya here.


dAAve said...

You can always take something to read when you go to the doctor's office. Not the porn, though. Leave that in your car.

Scott W said...

Take a copy of Conversations with God to the Dr's office, it makes waiting so much better.

J-Online said...

I so need to work on Patience. I get fired up pretty easy. I'm glad you are taking care of yourself. Hugs

Pam said...

Hi Zane!
I pictured you throwing a fit over a treadmill....sorry...but that was a funny as shit sight in my head.

Akannie said...

Hey baby...

A good hissy fit can be a thing of beauty. I hate that doctors think their time is so much more important than yours[mine].

Mostly, I don't go to the doctor unless I've got parts falling off.

(Plus--there's SICK people there !!!!)


I've been working years and years on patience. That is a really slow work in progress. But, it does get better.

When I know in advance that I will have to wait, it's not quite as bad. I prepare for it and take a book or writing materials.