So long as you entertain the notion that there is something or someone else out there "doing it" to you, you disempower yourself to do anything about it. March 26, 2008 Meditations from Conversations with God Book 1, page 36.
Hey there AAALLLLLLKKKKKKKKKIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEESSSSS.
In reading the above meditation, I thanked God I am no longer a victim. A lot of things happened to me throughout my life, I am no longer a victim. Now in my childhood it was a different story. I was a victim. But now I am a survivor. I am a survivor from those things from childhood and a hell of a lot of shit as an adult.
But so many of the things from adulthood were caused by me or by my very active part in so many of those happenings. What a new pair of glasses my 4th step brought me. I would not trade them for anything in this world.
Today was a great day. I had an "appointment with my endocrinologist at 1:45. I waited about 30 min and I was in the waiting are by myself. The "Out to Lunch sign was in the receptionist window. Finally someone came to the window and asked me for whom I was waiting. I told them Dr. B and she said can't be, he is never in the office on the last Wednesday of the Month. I gave her my appt. card and another woman there told her to get my chart to be sure I was not there for tests. So they looked and looked and looked and could not find my chart. The receptionist returned from lunch and they told her what they were looking for, and she said "Oh I have it in yesterday's NO SHOW group to call". I said no my appointment was today. So she took the card and opened the "BOOK" and there my appointment was, just like I said March 25. She looked at me and smiled, Yes it is for the 25th which was yesterday. So I said "Well I guess I have to take my MAD back." They laughed and said yes you do. Anyway I wound up with an appointment for Wednesday, April 1 at 1:30. I got my card and while the three of them were standing at the window I told them, Now my MAD will be back full force if next Wednesday you all gather at the window and say APRIL FOOLs. We all had a laugh and I left with a smile on my face.
Tonight was sort of a special night. It was Blogger's Night Out. LASH is in town and we met him and went to dinner. It was Daave, Hayden, Pam, and I. We had a very nice and fun 2 hours together. Micky came up in conversation. Now I had not as yet seen his Micky dolls from last week. But I did go in tonight and just laughed my ass off. I loved the transsexual MICKY. This was just a real kick in the head. I love the way this blog has opened my world to new sober friends.
Tonite I am grateful for:
My Higher Power, God.
Dolly, my schnauzer. (always)
The fellowship of the bloggers tonight.
Humor in my life.
Not being a victim anymore.
Humor kicking in when I really wanted to have a SNIT at the DR's office.
Y'all be pretty now, ya heah.