THURSDAY NIGHT, APRIL 3, 2004

Every heart has its secret sorrows, which the world knows not;
And often time we call a man cold, when he is only sad. Henry Wadsworth Longfellow
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Hey Alkies,
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Today I left home without my American Express Card. I did not get hit by a bus. Stores did not close and lock their doors as I passed. When I took Dolly into the groomers, they did not look at me and say, "Get out, you left home without your American Express Card." Absolutely no drama either when I picked her up and pulled out my DEBIT card and paid for an overpriced grooming for my little darling.

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When I stopped to pick up dinner to take home, the cashier had no reaction to the fact that I had left home without the AEC. So maybe, just maybe I won't be ostracized from society at large. It appears that no one really cared. What a concept, actually getting through a day without using a credit card. It has been a long time, I have not had the shakes, I have not felt I was going to die, and I do not have a headache.

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Wow, I have just lived through the first step: We admitted we were powerless over Credit Cards--that our lives had become unmanageable. I'm sure you have figured out that this is with tongue in cheek. I have a very good friend that has been very successful with going to Debtors Anonymous. I may have to look at that further down the road, but at this time I do not think so. But then I also thought that about Alcoholics Anonymous.

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Today I called Rick. We talked for about 30 minutes. We plan to get together next week to catch up on the past 35 years. He told me he has been sober 13 years come May. He also told me he rarely goes to Lambda and only did so on Tuesday because he had a friend visiting from Arkansas who wanted to drop in at Lambda. Now I do not usually go to Lambda on Tuesday's, but I decided to use my gas wisely and use the trip to town to get a meeting and to see the Dr. Rick told me he thought this was a God thing. Oh, I made my amends to him over the phone cause at the point of conversation I thought it fit. He does not even the incident nor felt that I treated him shabbily. What we do to ourselves. I am looking forward to our getting together and talking.

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I will be gone from Friday til Monday. I am going to visit my sister Rosalie in Silsbee, Tx. We have fun together. I always learn something new about the family. SO I will not be posting while I am gone. So you all have a great weekend and see ya Monday.

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Today I am Grateful for:

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God My Higher Power.

My Sobriety.

Dolly, my well groomed Schnauzer.

My Sponsor.

Telling myself to quit writing the script about visiting with Rick next week.

Being able to let go and let GOD.

The power of prayer.

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Y'all be pretty now, ya heah.