December 10 - Are you going to be in a place called fear, or in a place called love? Where are you -- and where are you coming from -- as you encounter life? Meditation from "Conversations with God, Bood 1 pg 172
What a wonderful meditation for today, especially today. You see I went to the movie this afternoon and saw "MILK." I met the man once in 1977 in San Francisco. I just thought of him as another gay activist and thought well of him. I lived through the fear of Proposition 6, Anita Bryant, Briggs, and all that stuff. I also lived with it. I remember some of the snickers about Milk - oh here he runs again or some such. Today I thank God for MILK and people like him. Now don't get your panties in a sscootch, I'm not politicizing the moment. I'm just saying he lived in love, he was an example of living in love. It is because of people like him that I live in love today and not the ever engrossing fear of the 60's and 70's.
And so it is with sobriety. I live in a new kind of love today. And very little fear, unless my daily spiritual quotient is not filled. And if it is not filled it is because I am not spiritually fit for that day. So I have to work to be sure that I am fit. And participating in the recovery I find on the blogosphere is just incredible. I find a lot of love and acceptance here. And there is no message of hate or fear. Just a message of loving acceptance. I love all of you for that. I love all of you regardless of your station in life, your sexual orientation, you religious beliefs, or your own personal politics. You all give me a wonderful gift on a daily basis. Sober Acceptance.
Ok, now about the snow. As I was driving home this afternoon just about the time I passed the beltway heading North I noticed a few splashes on my windshield that was not a regular raindrop. Then I noticed that it was snowing. In Houston, comma, Texas. On December 10, 2008. The last time it snowed here was Christmas Eve into Christmas day in 2004. It was glorius. My Christmas music was just a blaring on my radio - 99.1. It was just a wonder. I am always just mesmerized by snow and today was no different. I stopped for some $1.49 gas at HEB, exchanged wonderment with other drivers and home I went. The roofs in the neighborhood had a white cover on them. I got out my camera, went in the house and brought Mamie out and started Snapping Pictures. Mamie crapped in the front yard across the street. Just a little brown pile of baby logs steaming in the snow. I got some pictures of the kids in the nh with their eyes lit up with the wonderment only a child can convey. Then I made it back home and stopped across the street and Mamie's pile of logs was covered with white erasing the ugly presence of crap. WE NEED MORE SNOW! I was given a chance to see the world through the wonderment of the children of my NH and I am so grateful for that. I thank God for that moment of beauty and tranquility. I may live to be 90 (oh lord) but I will never experience that exact moment or feeling again. I am so grateful for the gift of sobriety that afforded me the presence to enjoy one of God's wonders. It just does not get much better than that.
Tonight I am Grateful for:
- God, my Higher Power
- My Sobriety
- Mamie, my OCD schnauzer
- My Sponsor
- All of the above
- Cooking a pot of beef stew and a pan of cornbread
- Enjoying a fire in my fireplace.(Better n a #3 washtub)
- All y'all.
- Now y'all be pretty, ya heah!