Monday, December 22, 2008

OY Vey, What a Day!

December 22 - If a snowflake is utterly perfect to its design, do you not think the same could be said about something as magnificent as your life? Meditations from "Conversations with God - Book 1, pg 46
Hey there, my alkie friends. How the hell are ya? I really cannot complain and I'm not, just telling what this day has dealt out to me. Not a calamity either, I've just had easier days, and I sure as hell have had much much worse days.
Today started out ok. I awakened to the sound of my furnace heating up the rest of the house, I keep my bedroom cool as I sleep better in the cool or the cold. I left my house around 1:30 to go to the retinologist at 2:30. The appointment was to check out my left eye to see how successful the last laser surgery was. Both eyes were dilated, the dye was infused and a few minutes later the picture taking of my eyes began. That took about 30 minutes. Now the infusion did not go real well. I am a phlebotomist nightmare as I have veins that avoid the needle. I would not have made a good junkie. After three attempts, success. Dr. Feigon went over the results with me and the news was not what I wanted to hear. The good news is that the laser surgery was partially successful. My sight is better but the blood is not flowing properly in the artery in my eyer. So I go back on Jan 28 and if no significant improvement, which she doubts, it will be necessary to have eye surgery - the cutting type. The type that will require hospitalization. So I left at 4:15 and decided to go to Lambda for the 5:15 meeting which I found to be a very good meeting. I started home and realized going to the meeting was a big mistake because I could not see with the sunglasses I wear after the dilation and the lighs were just a glare of stars shining back. So it was a difficult drive home.
Arriving home, the house was cold. I turned on the heat and did a couple of things and realized the heat did not come on. Double checked and the furnace would not come on. So I followed the troubled shooting directions and it did not work. So I called the Co. that installed the NEW system May 19 2008. Repairman arrived about 9:00 PM. Turns out the furnace shorted out the breaker, he made a fix so I will have heat tonight, but no air cond. Then he will be back in the AM to install two new breakers. It appears all of this will be covered by my warranty. Good News! Bad NEWS- I had to pay a $144.00 service call fee. Could have been much worse.
So, yeah, it was not a good day. But again, the Good News is that I just rolled with the news both times. I did not have an anxiety attack or a hissy fit or - well you get the picture. I just handled each situation and let each one roll into it's own solution. Again the promises came to mind - we will intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle us. Well, now my friends that sounds well and good, but good ole God was just shooting me some of His good ole shots, and leading me through to the other side. And drinking never crossed my mind. I started out the day with sobriety intact, and wound the day up with sobriety intact. It just does not get any better than that.
Tonight I am grateful for:
  • God, my Higher Power
  • My Sobriety
  • Mamie, my OCD schnauzer
  • My Sponsor's encouragement as I started my day.
  • To be able to process and accept negative news.
  • A very good speaker at Lambda's Saturday Speaker Mtg.
  • All y'all

Y'all be pretty now, ya heah!


Findon said...

Zane. Sorry to hear the eyes weren't a total success. Hopefully next visit much better news. My next eye visit is in Feb, where I'm hoping they will tell me they can save my sight. Glad you got through the day.

Syd said...

I think that accepting what comes my way without getting angry is something that I'm so grateful for. I am not a worrier nor am I volatile. It baffles some people.

Hope that today is a better day.

Pam said...

I wanted to stop by and wish you and Mamie a wonderful Christmas Zane. Look after yourself MR!

J-Online said...

I'm so impressed with how you handled both situations. I'm so sorry to hear about your eyes. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Have a very Merry Christmas. Jenn

Scott W said...

I know all this eye stuff takes patience. It will all work out like it's supposed to.

dAAve said...

Let's just wait and see what a Vision for You actually means.

peanut said...

Hi Zane. Sounds like a terrible day or two.

Sorry about your eyes. AND the heater/ac -breaker problems.

You did good !!

Proud of how you handled all that.

I'll be checking in. Love you

steveroni said...

I'm so sorry you're having these extra eye surgery problems.

Mine went so well, back in September and October, but it was lens implanting. And I am so pleased with the result.

Hopeflly yours will turn in that direction also, Zane.

Happy Monday.
Happy week.

Mary LA said...

Much sympathy -- I am blind in my right eye and have had so many ops and lazers that I can't recall half of them!

Stay strong and let's pray for a skilled surgeon.