Wednesday, December 31, 2008


December 31 - You want bells and whistles? I'll see what I can arrange. Meditations from "Conversations with God, Book 1" page 59
Pop Pop, Bang Bang. Mamie is going nuts with all the fireworks. Bless her heart she is sticking to me like glue. She had to go outside but would only take a couple of steps and look back at me. I walked her out to the grass in the backyard and she just peeed. Bam Bam POP POP. She finished, yelped and ran to the back door just a carrying on. I got her inside and she just jumped up to my chest. Poor little thing. I just have to hold her and keep her calm. She's ok as long as she is not more than a foot from me. Now if I could just find a HUZ-Band like that I'd be as happy as a flea lost on a dog.
I'm staying home tonight. I stayed home last year for the first time in my adult life. New Years as home was not as bad as I thought it would be. I rather enjoyed it. Sobriety does wonders don't you agree. When I was out there guzzling up all the liquor I could wrap my lips around, I wouldn't stay home alone for nothing. Now I am comfortable with me and I thank God for that. I know I'm crazy as a loon sometimes, but I can live with that. It's a great day when I can remember the whole of the day past and don't wonder what in the hell I did last night. This is my 18th SOBER New Years Eve and it just keeps getting better.
Tonight I am grateful for:
  • GOD, my Higher Power
  • My Sobriety
  • Mamie my OCD Schnauzer
  • My Sponsor (who listened to all my ranting today)
  • There is 2 hours and 35 minutes left of 2008.
  • And that is in the now.
  • All y'all

Now y'all be pretty, ya heah.


steveroni said...

And a HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU, Zane, my friend. Being alone is not all it's cooked up to ne...but the opposite is neither...cooked up to be.

No matter what they say. And who the H**L is "they" anyway? Maybe I'll find out in 2009, but no holding of breath on that score.

See ya next year!

Findon said...

Happy new year Zane. Glad that you are happy with you. It's a great feeling and a great place to be. Take care of yourself.

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Scott W said...

I was in bed before midnight, too. And glad to be there!

Todd HellsKitchen said...

Happy New Year, Pal!

big Jenn said...

Happy New Year Zane! Thanks for all your support. jeNN

J-Online said...

Happy New Year! Hope to meet you tomorrow! Jenn

Prayer Girl said...

This reminds me of my last dog (gone since 2001), Bridgette - I loved her dearly. She was a Springer Spaniel and when fireworks went off - New Year's Eve or 4th of July or whatever - her entire body would shake like a leaf in a high wind.

She would also jump into any bathtub she could find and shake in the tub. I'm not sure why she thought the tub would protect her, but that's what she did.

Stayed home this New Year's Eve and enjoyed the evening just fine. I watched "A Beautiful Mind" and loved it (again).

Happy New Year to you.