When you than God in advance for that which you choose to experience in your reality, you, in effect, acknowledge that it is there. June 10 - Meditations from "Conversations with God - Book 1" page 11
Hi my bunch of alkie friends. Tonight I tried to signing to att.com to pay my phone bill and as usual my password or my userid were not valid. Now I have this F^&(%*& problem every month and have written this info down in a secure place. I always check this to be sure, and I still cannot sign on. Next indicated step is to try on line help. @#$%^ don't work. Next indicated step is to try calling for on-line help. I get the auto voice and give it my info. Internet prob and I am connected to payment information. I give them the info and IT comes back and says, "It sounds like you have asked for an agent. This office is closed, please call back during business hours." I am screaming you GD F***ing Asshole Sonofabitch at an inanimate object which hangs up on me. So I call back and go through this shit again and I get Punjab in India and he says oh, I will transfer you to the billing information section. Then it goes into "We are closed for the night etc." I am SCREAMING by now. My neighbors lights are going on, alarms are going off because of the high decibels of my yelling. (Well, not really, but it sure enhances the story) I call back 3 more times and I am just burning. I start to scream at the inanimate object again and just start laughing. I really have some bottled up rage and this is good for me to get it out, and NO ONE really gets hurt or upset, or feelings hurt, and my rage is let out. So tomorrow I will call again and hopefully get to talk to a human, get reset, get online, and pay my bill. Why the rage, why not just pay it over the phone? There is a $10.00 charge. So I will do a 10th step to myself for getting to this rage to start with. Tomorrow is another day as Scarlet O'Hara would say, and I will deal with it then. But as God is my witness - I will never go hungry again. (I know that has nothing to do with it, but it sounds good). Thank God for sobriety and the blessing of recognizing when self-riot runs wild.
Tonight I am grateful for:
- God, my Higher Power
- Mamie, my OCD schnauzer.
- My sponsor
- My Right Eye
- Being sighted
- Grineroni and PG on their trip and posting.
- Sisters (it's so good to be able to say that in the plural)
- All y'all
Y'all be pretty now, ya heah.