Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Back Home

I want for you what you want for you. Nothing more, nothing less. I don't sit here and make a judgement, request by request, whether something should be granted you. My law is the law of cause and effect, not the law of "We'll see." June 17 - from Meditations from "Conversations with God - Book 1" page 117
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Hello there you bunch of alkies and others. How the hell are you? I got to Rosalie's Sunday about 6 PM. She was really having breathing problems. But thank God she has oxygen at home. When I got up Monday at 7 AM she was in her kitchen and not able to walk more than a few feet at a time without stopping. We finally got to her bedroom and she got back on her oxygen. About an hour later she was much better and we made her 10 AM Dr. Appt without further prob. In addition to her COPD with 40% Lung capacity, she has narrowing of the Aortic Valve in her heart and is not a candidate for surgery. Not the best news, but she is so damned positive she just keeps going like the Energizer Bunny. Yesterday took her for a series of X-rays. Took over an hour and she was exhausted when over. Could hardly walk. Got home and she was better due to taking some meds. Her worst time is the first hour or so when she gets up in the AM. Today I slept in, (10 AM) and had told them I would be going home today unless I was needed of just wanted for support. She said No, for me to go on home. I told her I was avail at a phone call for need or want. When I got home I called her to let her know I was safely home and blah, blah, blah. I told her I'd see her on the 3th for the 4th w/e. She said yes, she was looking forward to the w/e if she was still alive. That is the first negative thing I have heard from her in regards to her own health. A bit jarring but I think it was her way of saying "Be prepared Little Brother" and maybe just a quick glimpse of personal worry. She is very precious to me in spite of our arguments and all that crap. Geez, I'm so glad we get over that stuff quickly. Of course, a lot of it has to do with my sobriety and the fact that she no longer drinks heavily. She says with new meds she cannot have even a beer. Pisses her off, but she is pretty resigned to the fact. Damned she is so strong, just like our Mother, tho it ticks her off when I compare her to Mother so I don't. I just keep her out it.
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It is good to be home, Mamie is glad to be home, and I'm turning the AC to 42 for tonight. (Rosalie keeps her house at 78 or 80.) I keep mine at 70 - 78. Lower at night. But I can adjust. Flexibility is a blessing of being sober.
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Tonight I am grateful for:
  • God, My Higher Power
  • My Sobriety
  • Mamie, my OCD Schnauzer who enjoyed her visit to the country.
  • My sponsor.
  • The prayers and support of my fellow bloggers. THANK YOU. (that's a big Thank You)
  • That I'm pooped and still posting.
  • Friends
  • My nephew and his son
  • All y'all.

Y'all be pretty now, ya heah.

8 comments:

Akannie said...

REst well, Nursie...prayers for you and Rosalie. Tough stuff this life can be made of sometimes.

I have a sponsling with emphysema and I am watching her slide...the breathing problems are horrendous.

Love and big sloppy smoochies, Akannie

Findon said...

Glad to have you back Zane and glad things worked out.

dAAve said...

I'm glad. For so many things.

Patty said...

Glad you and Mamie made it home OK. I will keep Rosalie in my prayers, bless her heart.

Scott W said...

Keep on pooping and posting and all will be fine!

Queenneenee said...

So glad she is feeling better. You are a kind little brother. Nice to be sober and be able to help others ain't it?

Syd said...

Zane, glad to hear about your trip and your sister. I hope that all will be okay. It is really good that you are both caring about each other and all the differences have been put aside. There is nothing like family. Have a chilly night...42 F at night would be chilly for me. I keep the thermostat at about 75 and with a ceiling fan it is comfortable. Hang in there, my friend.

Trailboss said...

Good to hear she is doing better. Glad you are back home!