Wednesday Night, March 5, 2008

It is when the going gets tough that you so often forget Who You Are, and the tools I have given you for creating the life that you would choose. Mar 5 Meditations from Conversation With God.

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This meditation just really hits home for me at this time in my life. Financially, I am at my lowest since my early 20's. Health wise, I am experiencing a major event with my eyes, especially the left one, that seems to be working out very satisfactorily for me. Ageing is no longer the albatross that it was; I have come to accept the fact that this is also happening to my body, but in my mind, I still feel young.

However, even with the financial problems, I do not feel as if there is no way to resolve the issues. With patience (which I have little of) and perserverance I can overcome this. This meditation, as with the program of AA, reminds me that I have the tools to use to overcome this. Now, it may not be the way I really want it to work out, but I do have to do the footwork. I have to turn it over to my Higher Power - GOD, and pray for guidance to step me through this difficult time. It reminds me of three of Scott W. recent writings. Hope, Faith, and Integrity. And I truly believe that I have a very good understanding of these three things and do experience them in my daily life.

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Healthwise - I got an excellent report from the retinologist today. My right eye has completely healed. The left eye is on its way. I have had a markedly increase in vision in the left eye. (God does answer prayers) Also, she reduced the medication for my left eye and I do not go back for two months. So, one more time God has shown me that my hope and faith have brought me through a hard time. I am so blessed.

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Today I am so grateful for:

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My Higher Power - God.

My Sobriety.

Dolly, my Schnauzer.

My sponsor.

That I am blessed to live a sober, spiritual life on a daily basis.

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Y'all be pretty now, ya heah.