Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Every heart has its secret sorrows which the word knows not;
And sometimes we call a mad cold, when he is only sad. Henry Wadsworth Longfellow.
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Goooood Afternnnnnooooooooooon Alkies,

Well, I just plum forgot to post yesterday. I do remember the day, however, so all is not lost. Yesterday I saw my shrink. I'm still crazy, so I did not throw away my money on my "SOBER and CRAZY" bumper sticker that I got Saturday. I've had a stickker of that verbage for many years but have not had one since I got to Houston. Saturday I was at the Serenity shop in Old Towne Spring and they had it so I grabbed it.

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After seeing the shrink I went out to the Harris County Appraisal District almost to Austin, and dropped off my application for "over 65 tax exemption." This should lower my property taxes for 2007 and beyond. Then to Costco. It was about 77 and just really great outsidde. I was in the store about an Hour, and came out to this howling wind and the temp had dropped and with the wind it was cold enough to freeze a witches tit in a brass brasierre. Brrrrrrrr. Another way of God's way of telling us CHANGE is in the air. I love winter spring and fall. SCREW Summer. Now had I been the princess on Howdy Doody I would have been Princess SpringFallWinterSpring.

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Aha. Sunshine. Just a momentary peek from the heavens, just enough to let me know it is still there. Another one. Gone. Not much to report. I did get a call from the Endocrinologist and my appointment is 1:45 Feb 18. That will give me 6 days rest after my third laser treatment on my eye on Feb 12. It's always something. And God always gives me the strength to do what I need to do and continually does for me what I can or won't do for myself. But on a daily basis I thank Him for the blessings of the day before and ask Him to Lead, Guide, and Direct me as I trudge through today. And always, always, always, ask for His will not mine. It's just so simple. Until I get a good dose of fear and go all apeshit and then either myself or my good friend Daave reminds me about step three. Or Scott W. or today's birthday girl, PAMMY. or etc. Oh, lordy, and my sponsor.

And I call happenings like that GOD Shots. I don't hear much about God Shots down here in Texas, but it was common is So Cal. And they happen in sometimes subliminal ways. In changing lanes (look again), I do and a car was in my blind spot. Or, don't pull up by that truck, drop back and the truck swerves into where I would have been because some fool cut him off. Yes, God, my Higher Power is always there.

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That is enough out of me for today.

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Today I am grateful for:

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My Higher Power, God.

My Sobriety.

Dolly, My Schnauzer.

My Sponsor.

My friends.

The will to live this day to it's fullest.

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Y'all be pretty now, ya heah.