Monday, May 5, 2008

Monday Night, May 5, 2008

My messages will come in a hundred forms, at a thousand moments, across a million years. You cannot miss them if you truly listen. You cannot ignore them once truly heard. May 5, Meditations from Conversations with God Book 1, page 6
Hope everyone had a sober Cinco De Mayo. No margaritas in this house. I had the rest of the collard greens I cooked on Friday and that is definitely not Mexican. Today was Rick's 13th AA Birthday and I just thought of it. OOOOOPS. Well, I did bring it up to him on Saturday night so I'm not all bad. In fact, not at all. Forgetful, maybe, bad - hell no.
Mamie has adapted very well to the new environment and me and to her new name. I am not adapting to her as well. I keep comparing her to Dolly and I know that is not right. I will just work on progressing out of that and into her. It will happen. She is just so precious and her coat is so beautiful. She likes to snuggle when we go to bed, differently than Dolly, but I like that she has her own special way. We will get there. I was just closer to Dolly than any pet I ever had so it will take more time. I definitely do not regret the decision to get her.
You know my higher power, God is really looking over me at this time. With all that went down last week I have not gone into a depression. As the promises say he is doing for me what I cannot do for myself. I like that. I say my prayers twice a day, and a lot of thank you, God's are thrown in through out the day. This is my AM prayer - Dear Heavenly Father, thank you keeping us safe throughout the night. Please lead, guide, and direct as I go throughout my day and help me to stay sober one more day. Thank you for all my many blessings, thank you for blessing me with Mamie, and please bless the little Mamie. Please bless my friends, family, and loved ones with health, happiness, prosperity, spirituallity, and serenity. Let thy will, be my will. For it's in Jesus's name I pray, Amen. My evening prayer is similar. Dear Heavenly Father, thank you for being with me through out the day and for keeping me sober one more day. ..................Please be with us and keep us safe as we sleep and let thy will be my will..........Amen. Simple prayers. Sometimes I ask for a special prayer for someone that needs it, like lately I have asked for a special prayer for Joe and Karl. With these two prayers and the thank you's I give daily I maintain a constant contact with my higher power. And I do this because I want my sobriety to be as strong as my spiritual connection to my "Higher Power", God. Again, simple and following suggestions from the big book. KISS.
Today I am grateful for:
God, My Higher Power.
My Sobriety.
Mamie, my schnauzer.
Memories of Dolly.
Having called the vets office and thanked them for the strength from last Monday.
Having a lot of love to give to others and my new pet.
Love received back from others and my new pet.
Y'all be pretty now, ya heah.


dAAve said...

ruff ruff

Scott W said...

How absolutely wonderful you called the vet and thanked them for walking with you through that tough event. I am sure it made their day.

Keep it simple, even with prayer, is the way to go.

Pam said...

It took me a long time to stop comparing Theo to our great dane before him...Clyde. He was not Clyde he was Theo. But Clyde was so dear to my heart. It's funny how as time passes, Theo has a whole different personality and I find that I love it in totally different ways than I loved Clydes. Maybe it is how all our friends have different personalities and we love them all different also.
I added Joe and Karl to my prayers darlin'. I wouldn't know them if I passed them on the street...but they are important to you...and you are important to me. I know if you love them....they must be fabulous fellows!
I know that Dolly would hate for you to be sad...and would be so happy to see you giving your expert "doggy lovin'" to another.

Trailboss said...

Your prayers and my prayers have a lot in common. :)

Trailboss said...

Last year our Sophie had pups. One was born without an anus. We didn't know this until the little fellow was about 4 weeks old. The entire vet's office loved little Roger and always flocked around him whenever Joe took him in. We ended up having to put the little guy down because there was no way he would have any quality of life.

A couple of weeks later Joe bought the entire vet's office lunch from a local restaurant. They were so good to us and to the pups. They said that noone had ever done anything like that for them before. But that is the kind of person Joe is. I guess that is one of the things I love so much about him......:)