Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Wednesday Evening, May 28

Every heart has it's secret sorrows which the world knows not; Often times we call a man cold when he is only sad. Henry Wadsworth Longfellow
You have come here to work out an individual plan for your own salvation. Yet Salvation does not mean saving yourself from the snares of the devil. There is no such thing as the devil, and hell does not exist. You are saving yourself from the oblivion of non-realization. Meditations from Conversations with God Book 1, page 51
Hi, my friends. My internet problem has been fixed. However, that is not why I have not posted since last Wednesday. My last few days have been mostly for Joe. The last week has been incredibly looooonnnnnng. Karl's services were on Monday night with a Wake service at which I read the poem "On Friendship" which was on my last post. Then the funeral mass was at 10 AM yesterday. I have mostly made myself available to Joe for his needs - driving, and a strong shoulder to lean on. He has been remarkably well. He did completely break down in the car on the way to the cemetery. It was just the two of us, and I am so glad he finally just let go. Following the burial we all went to Joe's sister's house in the Heights for lunch. That last until 4 PM when I got Joe home and picked up my car and headed home. As I said the week was long and I was just exhausted. I got home about 5 PM, had a baked potato for dinner, took a 2 hr nap and then read the 30 minute Houston Chronicle. I was in bed at 10 Pm and woke up at 11.57 AM this morning. Well rested.
Today I went to a movie and saw the new Indiana Jones film. I found it funny and was just about the only one laughing. I would call it more of an adventurous sci-fi movie. Of course, after the last week, I probably would have laughed at paint drying.
I did make two meetings last week and a very very good speaker meeting on Saturday night. NOTHING gets in the way of my sobriety. I need meetings in times of crises and Thursday and Saturday nights just hit the right spot. However, if I had been unable to make a meeting, I still have willingness to accept that and know that alcohol is NEVER the answer to my problems. But, the two meetings certainly did rejuvenate batteries.
Thanks to all of you for your comments and now it is time to move on and continue to live a sober life to the fullest.
Today I am Grateful for:
God, my higher power that walked me through the last week.
My sobriety.
Mamie, my miniature schnauzer.
Memories of Dolly. (1 month today).
My sponsor.
Witnessing the strength of Joe's faith.
Being there for my friend.
Continued trudging one day at a time and seeing many sets of footprints in the road of Happy Destiny.
Y'all be pretty now, ya heah.


Bill said...

I'm glad you were able to help Joe. It's good for your own healing, too.
Thanks for your comment, and thanks for posting, also. I was thinking of sending out a posse to check on you.
How's Mamie?

Scott W said...

Good to see you commenting and posting again.

Pam said...

Zane I am so glad that our beautiful program produces wonderful men and women who can be depended on when we are needed.
AND that YOU are smart enough to go and sooth your spirit with a movie and some "fun" time.
I've missed you posting!

Trailboss said...

I'm glad you're back. Also glad you got some much needed rest.

Mary Christine said...

Zane, I am grateful for you and to you. And I thank God that there are men like you in this world.